The Writings of Kevin Somerville Weir
N.B. "Makwerhu" is the Shangaan word for "our brother" which is what most people called me when we ministered in Mpumalanga.
Hello! I’m Kevin—a senile delinquent who used to ride an adventure motorbike. Born in 1953, I am focused on growing old dis-gracefully.
My wife died of brain cancer in October 2011—the most devastating event in my life—and, in trying to make some sense of it all, I wrote an awful lot in what we have always called my Slightly Sacred Diary. Some of what I wrote should probably never be shown to anyone, but I decided to share some of what I thought at the time and subsequently, as I readjusted to the single life. These are what I believe to be my more useful thoughts. I hope that they might help someone else who is going through pain.
We had been married for 33½ wonderful, exciting, fun-filled years when, within the space of thirty days, Linda was admitted to hospital, diagnosed with a massive brain tumour, underwent surgery, and died. All that I’ve learnt from this experience, even after so long, is that I know nothing about how to deal with such a tragedy. I just try to survive each day. I guess that, so far, I have been successful, although there have been days when I found myself wishing that I could fail.
I have included some of the stuff that I wrote before the disaster because, as I look back at it, I find myself wondering if God gives us occasional subliminal insights that prepare us (insofar as one can prepare) for forthcoming disasters. I’ve tried to keep them in chronological sequence, but that hasn’t always worked out. I’ve tried to remember to put dates on them.
The blog deals with various thoughts, memories, and events that have come up.
Additionally, I’ve included occasional philosophical musings, bits of verse, and some of my own efforts at expressing my feelings through poetry.
I hope you enjoy reading it!
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us (Romans 8:18 ESV).
My wife died of brain cancer in October 2011—the most devastating event in my life—and, in trying to make some sense of it all, I wrote an awful lot in what we have always called my Slightly Sacred Diary. Some of what I wrote should probably never be shown to anyone, but I decided to share some of what I thought at the time and subsequently, as I readjusted to the single life. These are what I believe to be my more useful thoughts. I hope that they might help someone else who is going through pain.
We had been married for 33½ wonderful, exciting, fun-filled years when, within the space of thirty days, Linda was admitted to hospital, diagnosed with a massive brain tumour, underwent surgery, and died. All that I’ve learnt from this experience, even after so long, is that I know nothing about how to deal with such a tragedy. I just try to survive each day. I guess that, so far, I have been successful, although there have been days when I found myself wishing that I could fail.
I have included some of the stuff that I wrote before the disaster because, as I look back at it, I find myself wondering if God gives us occasional subliminal insights that prepare us (insofar as one can prepare) for forthcoming disasters. I’ve tried to keep them in chronological sequence, but that hasn’t always worked out. I’ve tried to remember to put dates on them.
The blog deals with various thoughts, memories, and events that have come up.
Additionally, I’ve included occasional philosophical musings, bits of verse, and some of my own efforts at expressing my feelings through poetry.
I hope you enjoy reading it!
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us (Romans 8:18 ESV).